Can't believe I actually get to post my story here. I have read every single story on this site and it gave me hope.
DP and I have been TTC no 1 after a missed miscarriage at 12 weeks early this January. I took it really badly as I felt that at 36 time was running out. After the miscarriage I ended up with a follicular cyst which meant we had to wait until March before we were allowed to start trying again. My cycles before the miscarriage were 28-31 days and that changed. They are now are more like 26-28 days . Also I started spotting from 7 days post ovulation and was driving myself mad with the idea I had a Luteal Phase defect and low progesterone and that nothing was going to be able to implant so early. In fact I went privately and did blood work myself ( AMH 1.69 , FSH of 8 , Estridol- cant remember, Progesterone after ovulation at 33 etc) without my doctor’s go ahead as I wanted peace of mind Progesterone was fine but the spotting still remained. All other tests seemed ok given my age.
Besides Prenatal vits and Omega 3, I used Vitex from February till May and then gave the Vitex up as I saw absolutely no difference in my cycle. I used Conceive plus lubricant in May and this June. Only thing I did differently this time was add cough syrup to thin my mucus. DP thought I was crazy but ha look who’s laughing now.
BD twice a day morning and evening (yes I know exhausting!):on CD6, 7, 9, 10, 11, 12, 14, 15, 16 and17.
Last Period from 1st to 4th June – CD1-4
June 14th CD14 - Positive OPK
June 15th CD15- Positive opk- painfully ovulation, balloon feeling from right ovary typically on the left). Think I ovulated today!
June 16th – 1DPO- Notice my nipples are very sore- they always hurt me but this time like someone had grated the nipples.
June 17th - 2DPO- Nipples still as sore and continue like this till BFP- notice one is more sensitive than the other and then they swap sides – odd!
June 22nd – DPO- 7-8
Normally I spot from around 7DPO till AF but notice that so far no blood- could this be? Don’t want to get my hopes up. Notice I have lots of zits. Think I am out for sure as last time I was pregnant, I had amazingly clear skin. Keep on feeling slight buzzing in my boobs – think I must be imagining this and dismiss the symptom.
I am so convinced I am out this month- peed on a stick on Sunday 23rd and of course it was BFN so I have 4 ciggies at the beach that day and a couple of beers to console myself. I had been abstaining since my BFP last October which ended in miscarriage at 12 weeks so this month I decided what the heck. I deserve this.
June 24th –9DPO
Woke up with a chin full of zits- normally I may get one before my period. Bit down as my last pregnancy I had really clear skin so take this as a negative sign. Looked at Fertility clinics in the UK today thinking if I don’t get a BFP by next September we will start looking at our options. Went to my usual spinning class – as we were cooling down I has a few minutes of bad cramping down low. Guessing this was the start of it all but at the time dismissed it as being nothing. Realized I have been constipated for 5 days – not like me at all. Was away for the weekend and only peed. Assumed I was uncomfortable going anywhere but home!
June 25th- 10DPO
Get up at 7 and go for my morning pee. As I wipe I find quite a large amount of light red/dark pink blood on my paper. I never spot so early in the morning. Now I start to hope it may be implantation bleeding as the time would be the same as the last time I was pregnant. I actually took a photo of it- gross I know but I remember when I looked up implantation bleeding there were hardly any images online. I decided to post it for those of you wondering what it is like as we have all seen tons of positive pregnancy tests. The color was red/pink and dark brown old blood mixed with fresh. Not enough to fill a tampax at all. I put a tampon in to collect the blood as I want to see what color it is hoping it may be implantation but telling myself not to be so stupid. I pee on an internet test (very early sensitivity) and BFN. Maybe it is AF after all. However I am not so sure as it seems like the same implantation bleeding I had last pregnancy.
I change tampax twice that morning to see what is going on and both times I had dried up brown blood with a speck of fresh red- more than my usual mid-cycle Luteal phase spotting and darker in color more like the last day of your period when you don’t need a tampon but you put one on just in case. I can see how some people might mistake implantation bleeding and think they were having a light period.
Anyhow after work, I cook dinner and scoff a load of chocolate and tell myself I am imagining it as this am was a BFN. On a whim and because internet pregnancy tests are so cheap I decide to POS at about 6pm. I swear I see a second faint line appear straight away. Get really excited- I have peed on enough sticks which were BFN. Pull out two more and dip them in the same pee and the same thing. Three very faint, squint and you might miss them positives at 10DPO. Showed them to my partner via my smartphone and he is usually quite skeptical but he too could see the faint lines. Can’t believe it.
June 26th- 11DPO
Work up at four am busting to pee – good sign since the only other times I have woken up to pee so early I was pregnant. FMU was same as yesterday’s line- barely a whisper of a line but still there. Reminding myself that this is a very early test to might be chemical though my body is telling me I am clearly pregnant. Went back to sleep and dreams I had a miscarriage. Felt hungry all day – otherwise fine. Bought a digital test which I plan on using in a few days to check my progress. Excited but very wary. Decided we are not telling anyone this time until after 14 weeks if I can hide it till then.
June 27th – 12DPO
Woke up and was constipated then I had the runs and quite a large amount of spotting when I strained on the toilet! Decide to take the day off work and rest. Very gassy. Call my gyne appointment for Monday coming. No spotting after that one incident – trying to remain positive and remind myself that this pregnancy has the same chances of success instead of expecting the worse.
June 28th - 13DPO – Period is due today and nothing. No spotting or anything. It’s early days yet but I am hopeful and grateful that I CAN get pregnant again as this was a major worry I had.
FMU shows a clear line – praying this little rainbow baby sticks and wishing all of you lots and lots of baby dust. I know everyone always says this but it is so true. These stories helped me so much while I was in my dreaded TWW’s. I hope and pray for a H and H 9 months- Baby dust to all.